I wish I could embrace my natural form. i WANT to feel wholely connected to my body. i feel ungrateful for this gift of a healthy, functioning, lovely body, but I do not feel like the form i inhabit fits me. I am not meant to appear or be shaped this way. I know it.
I have felt uncomfortable for years but I am too scared to even address it. I don’t want to force my body to be something its not, but I feel like my body is trying to force me to be something I’m not. How can I find a balance between these? Is there a balance possible to even attain? What should I do.
I am beginning my journey of making my body my own. It is scary and I don’t know what to do. I’m too scared to even talk to any of my loved ones about it because i lack so much confidence about it.
Sometimes I wish I had no fleshy manifestation of myself at all